Commentary About Fortnite I Was Forced to Go Into Great Detail With

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Do you kind of suck at competitive video games, often not know any of the rules, die frequently, and continue to do so very slowly less as you don’t actually give a fuck about improving? Then maybe you’d like to play it with me! Join my not very active discord server and follow me on my not very consistently live Twitch to connect with me! 😛
If you don’t know what it is, I’ll tell you why you should get it and play with me and how easily you can do that, unlike few other games that have existed before — for free, on most any devicethat you have or are comfortable with using and play it, mostly with people on your platform, but ultimately with anyone you know who agrees to play it it with you from any platform. Or at least, ideally… in most devices. And it will continue to add more. Unlike many games that have resisted cross platform, Fortnite will show the game devs of the world how much it is the way of the best multiplayer games that could exist.

I know the reasons you might not want to play it. Though some things about it are sparse and far more random than when compared to a more precision based engine (like, random character models not easily customized; the proccing occurrence of the variables in a set that are possible outcomes when a thing happens based on certain conditions, for example like “does it feel like the Desert Eagle gets a headshot from this distance on the first shot of its equipment and then not typically after that, strangely as if it was designed that way with a chance of “how recently was that change noticed?” and “yeah, we all definitely noticed that this update.”) And that’s really pushing on mechanics judgement for the sake of the greater problem you may have if you hate Fortnite.
“It’s a very cartoony game. I couldn’t play that.”
As if your war game play time as little boys goes on with you to pretend your video games are not as well a bloody cartoon of warfare themselves, so… I don’t see what the problem is if you lack that delusion. I can’t judge you for your tastes; mine aren’t any better than yours. However, your aesthetic has dominated gaming culture for a good while, with a nameless sea of characteristic FPS games that verily did overshadow everything else — or, if that’s an exaggeration, then let it go without argument that many genres died out or nearly did or were transformed into quasi shooters for assimilation into an overly narrow minded perspective about the presentation of video games that would buy and sell — and then come out again, the same exact game, and buy and sell.
But guess what. There’s no harm/no foul, all things are constantly in a position of one day going to be very different. And you can go along with that, not bitterly upset over a particular zeitgeist; also following that: you cannot be bitterly upset that things are marked by an era, and changed — replaced by other things. Cultures become and die out on marco and micro levels alike.
I hope you will not for long continue to lament “the state of games right now” as things are being phased out to be replaced by qualities of the what would frankly become as narrow minded in their own ways as you can be, if given the movement you and the momentum that early console FPS of the online era had. And I would think it safe to say that for all the momentum “the most popular game in the world, Fortnite” has, there’s a lot more belligerent? — strongly opinionated? — curiously hateful of? having something to say about what you think of it being such a hit than playing PC games on consoles with controller and accessing the Internet in a way that nearly wiped out the old concept of multiplayer.
And, as I recall it, realizing this was an after thought for many people, amazed by the technological advance (the old one that happened on PC a long time before the general public would find it and result in a mainstream shift of games into appealing to entirely different demographics of people who had lots of fun with those shooter games… that they played very, very exclusively those years… and didn’t have a complaint about it. |

People like me did, but we just didn’t really feel like playing another round of Call of Duty. Nothing personal. And when we went home, we played games by ourselves maybe — maybe another craze had us, like the MMORPG (which I’d rather not play than an RPG, but at the very least, it was a craze understanding of its niche nature, not expecting every game to mold into its fucked off value of how a game should be). But either way, the grand finale here is that now your games are being affected by the more popular things growing as people are finally bored of Call of Duty,  after a lot longer of time than I was bored of it to say the least.

PUBG, which I’ve gone thus far without mentioning, is a game that caries the hopes of your utter boredom with Call of Duty and all games likes it into the new genre archetype of Battle Royale, which unfortunately for that hope, it is finding itself the poorly operational project that it is (a better idea than a game, really) of a game that was released broken, is updated with broken fixes, and in the next week or two after being fixed will be broken again. I’m sure whatever you might have to say contesting this is not very confident, since it’s obviously true to anyone who is familiar with how for all its attempts at realism, it hits some fucked up buggy shit that makes no sense as precision competitive gaming is bugging out in little ways that make random determinations in Fortnite look pretty calculated, as your war cry is, “What the fuck is this bullshit” because you’re part of one of gaming’s newer subcultures.

Yes, you’re a tryhard, and that mean that the leader boards and the wins and the losses that you count up… are emotionally effecting you like the way a sport affects an athlete who plays it, or maybe just a person who likes to watch it. The fucked up things about it are accepted, like the calls a ref makes, but the thing is a of the magnitude that a person concerned with almost definitely is having delusions about it if they are really worked up. Like, the degree to which you’re upset by a call made by a ref or a proc in a game that results in your loss, directly correlates to how likely it is that whatever you have to say about that is fucking crazy and not even close to that big of deal. You rarely scream “This is Bullshit” with a rational detailing of the logic. It’s definitely very likely to sound like something that is very like crying, entitled, poor sportsmanship that blows up its own importance so big that it can’t even see it.

And if you’re that invested in the game, it becomes difficult to play PUBG, doesn’t it? You can scream about the ref calls over and over and over, but if you’re sensible, you’re probably doing what a lot of people are doing — they’re not playing PUBG anymore, not until a new update, which they find is a temporary solution to issues that are only some of the many. And yep, I know that a lot of you enjoy the shit out of PUBG and are especially mad at Fortnite for the shift its going to create as all these Battle Royale games start coming out that are dareisay cartoony from the looks of the alphas I’ve seen. And, you may not have your own aesthetic destroyed entirely, but… you’re going to have to watch as everyone quits playing your game to play what for now is Fortnite, and now you get to play the niche dying genre as I’m having fun with Fortnite and and am not even concerned with the “state of gaming” (DrDisRespect) and how games not exactly like your one genre specific FPS game has all been forced to share space with games of characteristic things that are while still fundamentally shooting games, ever not the sorts of games that you would even be willing to entertain the idea of as anything but inferior games of an unwelcome different characteristic than the ones ordained in the era of the PS3.

That era is over now. But  guess what? It’s so easy to just get the fuck over it. It’s not the god damned end of the world. Try to enjoy yourself, the way we did in your time, and eventually stop bitching about the old days maybe if you’re not only the most common of motherfuckers who will do this into their old age. I do empathize, but not as much as I enjoy new things occasionally enough without ever concerning myself with the things that aren’t being played (or made) anymore.

And yeah, I guess it is just another game that everyone is playing, and if you don’t like it, it’s kind of disconnecting, but take heart. It will transform into some new again. Maybe next round you’ll have coped with your losses and genuinely enjoy the newer spirit of the times.

That’s where I find myself with Fortnite, which I fell into originally as spectator, since as I said… having never been very into a game with a competitive nature online where a very serious competition will ensue as everyone playing it is connected with all the very serious players. So, even after watching a lot of games and starting to understand a lot of the rules like someone when they first start watching basketball or football become familiar with the terms used and the rules applied and etc. I like the damned game. I watch it similarly to watching Basketball. I casually enjoy it enough to watch it, if I’m not exactly a fanatic. I can name some of the best players and have favorites. I can talk about which thing which player is good at, and etc. etc. But verily let’s not forget, I still and possibly always will suck at the game. At its core, its very like your games. And I never really could want to play the mothers. So I get it. You don’t want to play Fortnite. But guess what. I’m going to be out here talking about it, and too bad so sad, so is everyone else. So, if you’re not going to play it with us, I get it.

But you really should.

You see, it’s by virtue of a less “realistic” game that you have seen other most popular games in the world arise. League of Legends, which is the bigger esport game than your FPS games from last gen could have ever been, because being the grossly graphical emphasis on expensive to make Triple A titles that not everyone has access to are never going to become an esport the way a game you can play like soccer is played all over the world — by anyone with an amount of space and an object to use as a bloody ball — can easily play and enjoy watching, at varied skill levels, all the way up to the very best. Soccer is the most popular sport in the world, and that fact is why.

Like League, Fortnite’s business model is free to play, without having need to be cheat out money like a shitty app,  because they are so popular that they are hugely profitable, result in continued development, get exposure as people have to see what it’s about (after all, it’s free); which, brings me to the other thing.

The people who made Fortnite intended for Fortnite to be at least two things that no the game isn’t. It was to be a tower defense and building game and it has a single player mode, which like most people, I cannot tell you the first thing about. All I know is that at whatever point in development, they made a Battle Royale mode which oddly had mechanics in it for an utterly unexpected style of gaming — the collecting of materials, for use in the instant conjuration of ramps, walkways, walls roof, flooring, that could be instantly used in defense against a firefight.

So, possibly without intention, a free to play game unlike any seen previously comes about with a different approach to the whole game just based on that aspect alone. You can’t be the very best on the basis of you’re a marksman sniper who peaks at the right times or whatever. No, you have to figure out what to do about the walls that just fly up into elaborate complexes of omni-directional platforms and block, protect, route, juke, and win out the game with a set of tactics that are — yes, they are supremely unrealistic, but in the process make for a game that is about being a good game, not about realistically being your gun murder fantasy. No judgement, I’m just saying. That’s what you got, can’t even watch some damned cartoons and shit.

And not to generalize people who like them, because it’s not your individual fault exactly, for your tastes in a thing. But… your criticism of other things that people like as if it’s not a legitimate thing to like, and it’s less than what you’re into because of x,y,z.

I shouldn’t have to be writing this huge manifesto on how all the people bitching about Fortnite are all full of shit. You don’t have to want to play it, but it’s a great game that is achieving success against the odds because it’s a well done game that is more unique than half of the games you’d drool over, and its blowing up into what it is because it’s got the makings of an esport that people will watch…

And, let’s have a look, shall we? In case you missed it, it’s not an accident… And its old news thats been this way long enough for everyone to be talking.

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I think it’s a cool game and all, and it’s fun to watch I think more than actually play for me, because I suck at it but I like the idea of getting good.

But at the same time… it’s not the only game I’m playing or anything. It’s the only online multiplayer shooter game I’m playing… because it’s the best one. 😛


dopefree for a month but from time to time have a blunt

I don’t really smoke blunts. They’re common around here these days and pretty much everywhere, but I still roll my marijuana cigarettes with a paper, and no tobacco; although I do give them European styled cardboard filter tips, just because it’s frankly the most sophisticated way to smoke it from my perspective (and not to diminish anyone else’s…)

This is because I break glass pipes too often to go buy another one while I’m spending a lot of the money I was spending on dope (and more, as a matter of fact) on computer parts.

This is basically just part one, as I still have a lot of parts to buy.

I haven’t really been in the mood to write lately, you guys. Maybe it does have a lot to do with losing my habit and having other ways to occupy my mind than graphomania … like learning how to do stuff like this.

And I just wanted to say that… I will try to write when I can, but if I don’t, it’s because I’m not doing dope anymore… still. And I will come back to make sure you still know eventually, and to show you pictures of my growing baby.

The Great Way is not difficult for those without preferences.

Except, I kind of do have some preferences about these computer parts, admittedly.

And with marijuana, I have shown how doable it is for some people to give up hard drugs and still keep it. And because of its value in this way,. I am not ashamed of it. It’s beautiful, unlike the twisted things I forsake.

Of course, I won’t be smoking it with the fans running on the rig…. if you were wondering.

Dozen Days Dope-Free


So I’ve turned on my Facebook again so that I could reach out to people in my life who would care that I’m a dozen days drug-free, or at the very least, provide a post of stability with which I can be socially pressured to take talking openly about my addiction seriously and resist moments of weakness.

I would say so far, that this has provided me — in addition to how fed up with it all I’ve become — with the will to not really have too much difficulty so far. It boils down to, do you really want to not be using, like badly enough to do… or do you just wish that you were strong enough? …And, pride-less enough. Because you sort of have to be open about whether or not you are or not using. At least, I do.

So I’ve been posting small posts there.

I have been turning down social occasions that involve alcohol because I know at this early stage that could be all it takes to change my mind. I’ve been investing a lot of my money into a very expensive hobby that is basically leaving me broke, and forcing me to use my energy to do things… without stimulants… so that at least at this stage, even if I wanted to break my resolve, I don’t have the spare money to do it.

I bought a Ryzen 5 1600 processor and an MSI B350 motherboard. I’m going to be picking up a GPU and case with my next paychecks.

It’s funny because building a PC is a project I started on speed, one which usually doesn’t get finished because its too big for the scope of the mind of a tweaker.

The first thing I had to do was DRAG myself out of bed, after a week of sleeping, and be like, “Okay, I’m not going to get high, what am I going to do?” and this expensive computer part shows up at my door.

And I’m like… well… I guess I’m going to build a computer. So I’ve been forcing myself to learn how to do it and its been occupying my mind and I think….

The problem a tweaker has is the inability to get anything done without artificial stimulation. Its the problem I have anyway. And so, I’e just been doing it without, solely based on the fact that I manicly invested a lot of money into a computer part while high.

So ironically, the project I am continuing sober is helping to adjust my mind to being productive on my own… doing a thing that I never would have done if I hadn’t been using.

My, this fits into a lot of my categories. Learning to write and continue these things I started while using is going to take some time. But I’m doing it.

Building My First PC From Parts I

It’s time for a new a column! I’ve been hella obsessed with this topic, as you’re going to find out. I’m going to learn how to build my first gaming PC from parts and this is going to be my little column about it. Maybe it will be helpful to people trying to learn and if not, maybe it will be helpful to me trying to learn.

If I had to give a reason, I’d say I’ve never built a computer from parts because I’ve never had the funding for the hardware just lying around to even consider attempting it. I’ve never made the investment into slowly making it happen, with one paycheck that I can barely keep a portion of at a time; also risking an enterprise turn into a potentially expensive failure is a thing I’ve not wanted to do very naturally, with what money I had forcing me pursue other avenues. But like a virgin trying to make it worth doing, I’m going to eventually know what I’m doing and the computer I’m going to have won’t be worth as much as the skills and knowledge about how to do it well.


Part considered but decided against… — GA-AB350-Gaming 3

I picked between these two because… I read about the socket a mobo has that allows it to fit a processor. This socket is important, and in this case is AM4. That socket tells me the types of CPU’s I’ll be able to use, so I set out for socket AM4 boards to facilitate the other part I’ve had to be decided in unison to use as well.

It really all kind of connects as such that, the decision to use any part includes the decision to use every other part. And as you decide which parts you want to use, you adjust and decide again which parts you are going to use based on that decision…. if that makes sense.

I hope that I’m not in over my head. I understand everything I’ve read so far about where I need to begin and this is how I have.

They say that it’s no more difficult than putting together an intricate model, so… I think I can put away a bit of money to buy some parts while spending the time between reading about them and digesting all there is to know before I ground myself and get my hands upon some metal case or something — on tile floor, without cotton socks dragging as I pace.

I think awareness of static electricity and its possible effect on components is the first thing you learn when you open a tower up, which… thankfully, this ain’t my first rodeo entirely, you know. I’m not entirely illiterate. I’ve added in RAM, moved audio and network cards and HDDs from old machines and into new ones. Or rather more often — into new ones to discover the incompatibility issues that different parts often face with new machines. I’ve even reset and replaced a CHMOS battery on a dried motherboard, in an attempt to do anything I could to solve my dysfunctional BIOS problem and prove my machine wasn’t fried.

That was the last desktop that I owned. It was a casual build of a Core 2 Duo, with a GPU that was not intended for any gaming, and a refurbished installation of Windows 7 that someone paired with fairly small hard drive, a minimal pair of RAM cards, and two extra fans in a modestly attractive case; 5.1 audio jacks, firewire support (that I never used, but which was there), an external hard drive port built under the DVD player in its own drive bay — USBs plentifully located on the front and rear; outfitted with an 802.11 wireless attenuate, which I thought was pretty cool at the time…

I think it was 2013 or so when I bought that computer –if I had to wiggle between two years variance– from the guy online who built it and quite thoroughly made it an average machine into nice computer that I loved having and mourned losing. To say the least of even that era, it was a low end machine that I often used to play an older era of games and by the grace of graphics settings made to strip as much as possible, more games that I had ever been able to play on a PC before in my own house, on my own sad little box, which I’ve had many that didn’t do the things that I always wanted and even some that failed to do the things I thought were’n’t very much to ask — like process a window open at the same time as another window.

I remember when broadband Internet was a thing that was replacing dial-up, and people would say, “Damn, you’re on dialup so you can’t really do the thing I’m doing with my broadband cable. ” I remember LAN parties, mostly enjoyed on someone else’s machine, and by the time I had tethered myself to an Ethernet cable I had access to in my home on the regular, it was already possible to wirelessly jump onto networks that were often still unsecured and free to the public –left that way by networking companies, and by techies who weren’t terribly concerned with the security– when only a small minority of people who spent a great deal of their time on a computer with other nerds even cared to bother with having email, before smart phones, when the Internet was on the cusp of changing life for people everywhere and Big Data was only beginning to realize the possibilities of how many people they could train into obedience after s period of what I can only call accurately enough to speak of what it is; a merciless raping in the body and mind, (which is owned, like anything that you say or do; which, their policy on that is: that anything you say or do is by their right to press from you such that it is also owned. And not by you).

Let’s put this into perspective. There was a time when if you wanted to use WordPress on your blog, it was a script that you installed on your server, which you had to administrate and give the functionality to comprehend things like programming language and databases. If you wanted to login securely, you had to CHMOD your files correctly to set permissions. There were not themes to bother with. You designed your site with a text editor and Photoshop; you followed an entirely archaic set of etiquette to express yourself by doing all the work yourself.

And as the technology of the world has changed so much that the way we use it has changed drastically over a short period of time into something else that becomes only more and more available over time, I have slowly been always lagging behind at a leisurely stroll, not even trying to catch up entirely. With all the games I never got to play and all the possibilities otherwise I never had hardware for, there was never a point when the current sensation concerned me enough that the new things I was able to do on my computer did not satisfy my thirst to do things on my computer.

At this point in my writing, I can easily say that I know more about software development, code, operating systems, their administration, and how to securely network with the world cut down to size for me to take a bite of, than of the hardware architecture I’ll scarcely see a glimpse of, whilst tinkering away to maximize performance by manipulating data more so than various cards whose power is only limited by the number of copies I can’t force out from nothing and have digitally at my fingertips — inexpensively paid for, like from the pennies in my endless piggy bank of UTF-8 characters and the syntax to give them everything I want them to do on a list from my keyboard, where I’ll learn everything there is to learn by stealing all there is to steal — in a way that I could never learn everything there was to know about such a thing any other way, without that unlimited access to have everything from the same people I share it back with, to tinker away on a forum, chat, or board somewhere with a power from parts that money can never buy; which, this power is only ever sold to people knowing nothing about solutions to problems but via the answers they upgrade to with a chunk of change so often and seldom otherwise by simple economics.

I’ve learned a small thing or two of economics since then, and while I can only say that a day’s work leaves me if nothing else fortunate enough with my life that I need not steal so much of everything I do that my mother can’t buy me. As an adult, I can pay for a game if I want to, and if I’m dedicated enough, I can put away little bits to piece by piece to get after savings accumulate, ==as ever– …an outdated machine that isn’t even middle tier today. And by the time I’m able to pay for it with the hundreds and thousands of dollars that it takes, there will be tens of thousands more new things that only the most privildeged of all people will ever get to play with easily.

But just you wait. When I’m finished, my new computer will do everything and more that I need. And, when it doesn’t, I’ll build another, and another, and another. I’ll trail behind at first, but just like I eventually got a job and quit running the streets like a little kid, maybe I’ll eventually sell a computer and learn a thing or two about all those toys you grew up with and showed me at your house from the distance of not understanding them and never having the degree of sophisticated machines you can only have if you learn to build them with expensive parts.

And expensive as they are, I’m still looking for a steal.

I made the first step today and I’ve invested $99 in a motherboard, which is a lot of money to spend on a thing that is at the end of the day just a motherboard — a device which can cost that amount and more than than that again still, and enable your build to support a number of things it will never support otherwise.

I would really like to grab up the CPU that I think I’m going with –a decision that inherently pertains to the decision of the motherboard picked– which I have learned from all of last night reading about this.

I actually thought the first thing I would need initially was a case to put my eventually-purchased motherboard in, but I also read that there is a thing called a form factor, which is a very easy way to find out how you are going to fit yuor mobo into the eventually-purchased case, as it were — being the least important and more aesthetic decision really. The case isn’t the first thing to look at, but perhaps the form factor of the motherboard and how that correlates to the case it will fit into is.

“PC cases themselves are often referred to by these size form factors, but the terms really refer to the size of the motherboards they can host. ATX boards measure 12×9.6 inches, MicroATX up to 9.6×9.6 inches (they’re often smaller), and Mini-ITX 6.7 inches square.”

So the first thing I decided was that I Wanted an ATX case, because I gathered that these were typical of the larger motherboards in full tower cased with room for all the fans expansions and things I want to learn to understand and make work.

I then realizes that while the motherboard is the framing of all the things that the PC will be able to possibly do, it is overshadowed by the one thing that it enables centrally to everything else the computer will do. It supports the central processing unit that the computer will have, or rather frankly, it does’t.

So even though the first thing you will need to have is a motherboard, the first thing you will need to decide to go with is the processor. I am fairly certain I know which one I;m going to buy in a pay period or two –or whenever I can hustle together enough extra cheddar and bread, which…

There are a few models I’m not sure of which I’ll go with, but if you’re familiar with the mobo I’ve already bought, then you know I’m going to be going AMD over Intel if nothing else. Or maybe you didn’t, but now you do.

I didn’t know this last week, but I know now that a motherboard and a processor are most likely always chosen together. The type of case desired will match a form factor of motherboard, so a decision about the type of case is also necessary to decide right away. It would seem to me that the decisions range from, large and spacious with opportunities for power to be supported for a price, and cheaper, more limited, in a compacted area that doesn’t support as much variety. This is probably a generalization, but I think it suits a newbie’s understanding probably.

And, yes. That’s what I am … a hardware newb, albeit who is writing an article. And despite writing it, I may say a thing that is not accurate or requires input from you, the reader, who knows a great deal about this hardware game. Or, perhaps, maybe if the reader knows less than I know, maybe it would be best to take anything I say with a variety of other sources, to be certain.

I’m going to read some more things about the processor I think I’m going to buy and possibly make up my mind, or just be more knowledgeable about the different specifications I’m choosing between, and why. In the next entry of this column, I’ll talk about that, and why I chose this processor.

I can truly say that I chose the MCI over the Gigabyte for aesthetic reasons. The specifications seem so similar as to not be incredibly different,, despite being a little unique from one another in ways.

I’m thinking black with red and purple LEDs. But, we’ll get to that…. a bit more later than I wish; just like my processor, which will cost about double what the mobo did.